17 April 2014

Nice Levels Dangerously Low

Today's post was going to be a very angry rant. I wrote it out and had juicy details, all that good stuff but once I had written it out my anger started to fade. Sort of. Suffice to say that some people suck the nice right out of you, I work with someone like that. Managed to suck a weeks worth of nice out of me. Anyway, although his face is still distasteful I no longer feel the need to punch it in - for now. Really reminds me of that crazy roommate I had, she never did anything wrong but you did.  This co-worker the same, only with male genitalia.

On a lighter note, my foot feels almost normal now.  Although quick question, is your heel supposed to pop when you walk barefoot?

16 April 2014

Climbing Over the Block

Many things in this world give me joy, many things annoy me, I think we're pretty balanced between those two.  

Things that give me joy?

  1. Rain!  I love the smell that bacteria produce when it rains. Yes, turns out that the lovely smell we associate with wet earth is from a bacterium - Actinomycetes. The difference between watering and rain causing the smell is that when we water by hand the water doesn't hit the ground with the same force as that of rain. The rain hits the ground so hard it causes the spores of this bacterium to rise in the air and we breathe it in thinking, "Oh isn't that a lovely smell." Still love rain.
  2. Marshmallow's shenanigans. Recently we visited my parents and she got her head stuck in the fence but didn't cry out, no we found her that way. Who knows how long she had been like that. It was a little sad to see her head stuck but also funny. I don't think she enjoys being laughed at :)
  3. The nephew. Always a load of fun. He is turning 4 years old and the child looks like a 6 year old! Still talks like a 4yo and hugs like one too. I will miss his toddler years I think, he is such a cuddler :)
  4. Churros. Just yum.
  5. Listening to music, it's just relaxing. All kinds of music, with the exception to the likes of Bieber and the likes. There are others but probably not as famous or I just don't know their names/groups.
  6. The weather of late.  Sort of. We went from ~33C weather to 1C this weekend. I like the changes in the temperature when they aren't too extreme but the transition from winter to summer in TX is slightly different. We have like 1 month of this extremely perfect weather and then BOOM! 40C+ weather!
  7. My improved (still improving) gardening skills! Yes I have successfully cared for 12 plants as of last year! WOOT! I plan on adding more plants to that this year and perhaps some veggies. Very ambitious.
What annoys me?
  • Prefixing a dish with the word Mexican. Please stop doing that. Just because you add the word, does not mean it is a Mexican dish.  At least add "-like" or "Inspired" because that just irks me. I don't make enchiladas and call them cannoli. If you add chile of any type then it's an enchilada, if you don't then it is not an enchilada. Please stop. I'm sure other cultures would like that too.
  • People who don't pull their weight at work. No names but ugh.
  • The wind on the South Plains. Not cool.
Seems that I have more things I like than dislike. I would say that's progress from the past few years. I have also accomplished a few things from my new goals for the year! I have purged most of my clothing! My closet looks a little sad right now but that's OK because we are moving on. I joined the gym and have been only once because of my foot, it is still bothering me a little. Actually the day I went I damaged it further and it sent me right back to limping around. I had stopped having pain and figured I could jump around a bit but turns out I was wrong. I have success fully cooked 1 vegetarian meal per month, 2 in April!  Share some of them soon :)

I think that's enough for now, seems the block is over!

04 April 2014

Limping Around

I am dry as the Mojave desert, I am totally blocked.  I obviously haven't written much of late but I just don't know what to write about.  Life has been a bit of a cliffhanger of late. There are so many things that race through my head and yet none of it seems suitable for the printed word. I feel like I've been in a perpetually bad mood for weeks now but it's only been a few days but even that is too long. It is like I'm waiting for the second shoe to drop but I don't know when the first one dropped or who dropped the shoe. Something big this way comes and it is freaking me out. Maybe I am imagining things but I still can't shake the feeling.  I really want to shake it off because I don't want this feeling to become a self-fulfilling prophecy kind of thing.

Perhaps it is the fact that Spring is here and the world is starting to wake up but it just doesn't feel right. Perhaps I am waking up too? The question being from what and to what but no answers forthcoming.  I think I am in a sort of limbo because my world is changing and things that I never considered have come into my periphery. We think of the world or at least our personal little world to be inviolate, not allowing the reality of others to color the things we do or think. However, recently I realized that my income, my health, and world in general are not inviolate. Work is actually good but truthfully in my line of work it is always on shaky ground. I could easily find a new job within my current department but I don't know that I would want to. I also hurt my foot while in San Francisco and my heel hurts sooo much! It is plantar fasciitis - according to me- but I'll verify with the doctor in a week or so. I have an appointment, my doctor is going to be mad with me because I gained soooooooooooo much weight. This is a follow-up and I was supposed to lose weight - I didn't. The world scenario is someone close to me had a health scare and nothing can make you open your eyes like a health scare! Yeah it is time to re-evaluate my life goals and make sure that I am where I want to be and if I have to vacate this place I want to be, where else would I like to be?

Things like my masters and starting a family have been on the backburner because I just didn't feel the necessity to change anything. I have been extremely comfortable but comfort seems to be a lying bastard! Anyway, it has just been weird. Right now I feel overwhelmed by all of this but I know that at the worst I am at my best. I guess it's just the fight response ingrained in me. Other than this I am currently obsessed with the Divergent trilogy. Who knew that one day I would return to reading fiction? YA fiction at that!